This isn’t something I’m proud of doing, but it’s a part of my story, and as such it needs to be shared. It’s very easy to fall into traps when all your eyes want to see is a lower number on a scale.
I hadn’t followed any nutritional advice up at this point, all I ‘knew’ was that if you eat less, you lose weight – yeah?
I really had no idea what I was doing. I didn’t understand macros, I barely grasped the concept of carbs, fats and proteins – all I was doing was choosing to avoid gluten and dairy, not have sugar, choose the lowest calorie options, and shrink my meal sizes by half. And if I thought I ate too much, eat less the next few days and make sure I did some cardio.
At this point in my life, I hadn’t had my period for close to 3 years, I was tired, I was ‘skinny-fat’, I didn’t sleep well, my gut health was terrible, I was at the end of a toxic relationship and I was binge drinking alcohol on the weekends.
I was not ‘healthy’.
A part of me knew I was not managing my nutrition with care, and up until this point I hadn’t sought out professional coaching for my training or nutrition. But, I knew something had to give.
So, I swallowed my ego and sought out coaching.
And, that’s when I found Thomas – who has remained in my life since, and helps me be the best version of me every day. He gave me the tools to help walk away from my self-inflicted pressure of being ‘skinny’.
He took me into the free weights section of the gym. And you know what? The boys weren’t that big and the big dumbbells weren’t that scary! From the day Thomas started coaching me in my training and nutrition, I haven’t regretted seeking out help.
Seeking out coaching was the single best thing I ever did – and I know that if I hadn’t done it, I wouldn’t be where I am today.
And the rest, they say, is history.
I’m the person I show the world – I’m fit, I’m strong and I’m healthy. But above all, I’m happy. My body is free of my own shame. Does this mean I don’t have my moments where I ‘wish” I was leaner, weighed a little less, was a little stronger? No – I’d be lying.
And, I’ve been through a journey.